I'm tired -- just plain exhausted. Why? It's because of stress!!! I stress myself out over every little thing I read about. For example, my most recent series of panic attacks and tears were over food dyes. For the last 15 years or so, I have done my best to avoid all food dyes, artificial flavorings and preservatives. Most people scoffed my efforts since my choices were not common place at the time. I persevered and believed I was doing the right thing.
Well.... don't question my intelligence when you hear this one. Instead, my levels of trust should be under consideration. As I mentioned previously, I read the labels on everything. Well, when my prescription prenatal vitamins didn't come with an ingredient list, I didn't go out of my way to get one. I googled the name of the vitamin and came across one on line that had the same name and the ingredients were great.
Hmmm... maybe I should have stopped to ask myself WHY THE HELL THE PILLS WERE YELLOW!!! Or the ones before that were blue!! Well, it was because of food dyes in the pills. Who the hell would do such a thing to a pregnant woman??!?!? I understand that the pharmacists need them to be identifiable, but seriously.. do we need twenty different brands? Can't they do it with something other than petroleum based chemicals???
I am the sort of person who just cannot let go. If there are any minute problems with my daughters in the future, I will blame myself first and foremost. Then I will blame the idiot doctors that prescribed them and then the ridiculous pharmaceutical companies.
Thanks for listening. I feel a little bit better.